Heart Breaker

when i need you ... :-<

2006-08-29T11:47:00.000+03:00

When I need you
I just close my eyes and Im with you
And all that I so want to give you
Its only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day
Miles and miles of empty space in between us
The telephone cant take the place of your smile
But you know I wont be travelin forever
Its cold out, but hold out, and do I like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and Im with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
Its only a heartbeat away
Its not easy when the road is your driver
Honey thats a heavy load that we bear
But you know I wont be traveling a lifetime
Its cold out but hold out and do like I do
Oh, I need youWhen I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day
When I need you
I just close my eyes
And youre right here by my side
Keeping me warm night and day
I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hand
And Im with you darling ...

so this guys problem was that his sweety was far far away ... so why did i copy paste these lyrics u ask ? well, i think i can relate to them (in a strange, patetic way) ... i have no idea who i luv or who i need beside me ... i wish somebody will make at least a song about that : ... last night i cried my eyes out for about an hour ... like wtf ?!? dunno why exactly ... i guess i just felt sorry for the guy i just dumped and i kinda really cared bout him ... i just didn`t want him to get hurt further on in our relasionship when i was bound to cheat on him ... yeah that`s me ... a stupid little girl ... i don`t wanna see him again ... it just hurts too much ... so fellow bloggers, ever seen that movie "The Perfect Man" ? it`s with Hillary Duff and another one (dunno her name) ... anyway, Hillary Duff`s mother got out a bad relasionship and jumped right into another but every time that happened they would move to another part of the USA. kinda freaky, don`t ya think ? so this is kinda what i`m doing, i run away from everything ... instead of turning around and facing my problems i just erase every trace of them and hope i`ll see the guys again ... that reminds me that i gotta throw out his gifts ... omg i hate me ...

Kiss me !!

2006-08-28T22:23:00.000+03:00

23:14 28 August 2006

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.
Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss meKiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

She said you never tell me that you love me anymore
So I can't help but wonder if you do
She said if things don't change you'll see me walk right out that door
Cause I've done everything I know to do
I said I just don't know what it is you want from me
She said I only want us back the way we used to be
Then she said
Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me
Hold me, hold me like you want me
Like you'll never let me go
She said show me, show me
That you really love me
And then tell me cause I really need to know
She said kiss me, kiss me, kiss me
I got down on my knee right there and promised her I'd change
Cause deep inside I knew that she was right
I said I know we've drifted and there's only me to blame
But I don't want to waste another night
Somewhere in the darkness there we found a brand new start
As I took every word she whispered straight to heart
Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me
Hold me, hold me like you want me
Like you'll never let me go
She said show me, show me
That you really love me
And then tell me cause I really need to know
She said kiss me, kiss me, kiss me
Kiss me......

Baby what you doin' tonight?
I'll go anywhere that you want to go
Jump into my car go down to that bar
Pretend I'm someone that you don't know
I'll ask you if you would like to dance
Slip myself up close to your thighs
You can buy me a drink, we'll make everyone think
That love is so damned perfect tonight
Oh kiss me, kiss me, kiss everything away
Oh honey now kiss me, kiss me, kiss me.
Come out and play
A woman can go crazy I know, working all day in and day out
Come on, we'll let off some steam, create a scene
Nothing like a good scream and shout
Oh kiss me, kiss me, kiss everything away
Oh honey now kiss me, kiss me,
Kiss me - come out and play
Your kiss is like medicine - a prescription to exstacy
And your mind is my playground - look at what I've found
Lying next to me ...aahh
Baby what you doin' tonight? I'll be anyone you want me to be
Just a girl in a bar, your personal super star
I just want ya, I want ya, I want ya, I want you to
Kiss me, kiss me, kiss everything away
Oh honey now kiss me, kiss me, kiss me.
Come out and play
Kiss me, kiss me, kiss me.

You don't know how you took it
You just know what you got
Oh Lordy you've been stealing
From the theives and you got caught
In the headlights
Of a stretch car
You're a star
Dressing like your sister
Living like a tart
They don't know what you're doing
Babe, it must be art
You're a headache
In a suitcase
You're a star
Oh no, don't be shy
You don't have to go blind
Hold me, thrill me, kiss me, kill me
You don't know how you got here
You just know you want out
Believing in yourself
Almost as much as you doubt
You're a big smash
You wear it like a rash
Star Oh no, don't be shy
There's a crowd to cry
Hold me, thrill me, kiss me, kill me
They want you to be Jesus
They'll go down on one knee
But they'll want their money back
If you're alive at thirty-three
And you're turning tricks
With your crucifix
You're a star (Oh child)
Of course you're not shy
You don't have to deny love
Hold me, thrill me, kiss me, kill me

One touch can bring us closer
Don't want this to be over
You know that you complete me
Your love is what I need
Don't rush to see you leaving
Stay with me while
I'm sleeping
Cuz you know what you do to me
I'm weak and you know my heart is beating
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
You don't have to hold back or be shy
I can feel you want me in your eyes
One, two, three, kiss, that's when I know that we
Four, five, six, kiss, have the right chemistry
Feels so good cuz I know that you're mine
Boy I got my eyes closed cuz you know that I
Love it when you kiss me
Love it when our lips meet
You intoxicate me
I barely can breathe
I love when you kiss me
Ooh boy I'm coming over
You know I wanna hold ya
Kiss you, cuz I know you want me too
I want to give you what you'll like
So, so don't be afraid to
To tell me what'll make you
Reach the top
I'm needing it
Cuz baby I can feel your heart beating

So i did a google search ("kiss me lyrics") ... i found more than these but i didn`t really relate to them ... i just want him to fuckin` kiss me (oops) !!! i`m just crazy bout him :x and he`s driving me crazy with every touch and every look that he gives me :x omg omg omg ... the guy`s an expert in dating and stuff like that (really popular, blond, green eyes) and trust me when i say that he knows what his doing :x and that time when we stayed in the park on a bench and he said that i have i beautiful smile and held my hand when we walked out of the park ... omg why didn`t he kiss me then ?????????

2006-08-28T14:29:00.000+03:00

14:35 28 August 2006

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound
Isn't anyone tryin’ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you ...

So this is how i feel every time i fall in love .. so hopeless and needy ... like a victim ... and trust, i fall in love every month or so ... and i feel so great, like i`m flying ... and i always get the guys to fall for me to ... and when they do ... i just get bored ... and then there`s the break up ... and i feel like shit for about 2 days coz i feel sorry for the poor guy ... and then i realise that he knew what he was getting into form the start ... coz i told him how i was, i didn`t keep it a secret but he was so brave and he thought that he could tame me or something like that ... he tought that he could make me fall in love for good ... they all think that :)) and it`s kinda funny if u think of it ... and after that i start feeling good again ... i find another guy ... and it`s the same think over and over again ...
And so yesterday I was feeling kinda bad ... (just broke up with a guy yesterday) and i was telling one of my friends that i`m to mean and that i don`t care about other peoples feelings and stuff like that ... and he said : "u`re not mean ... u`re just you ... and nobody has the wright to judge you before they understand you " ... kinda freaky, don`t ya think ? : well, i kinda got a bit scared ... but i`m ok now ... hope the my ex is too ... and btw, i just found a new "victim" ... ;)